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喜欢下雨，因为你不会知道我在流泪..

喜欢发呆，因为你不会知道我在想你..

喜欢孤单，因为你不会发现我爱你..

喜欢和你在一起，因为你是我快乐唯一的因素. !!

Just A day~

haiz...so sigh of this kind of life...
I realised i have become an emotional girl since i came over here.
Lol...
everyday also keep saying ''sien, haiz''
i guess people around me also knew about it, especially yf..haha..

tis week keep rushing law assign, 3k man...going to crazy!
next week worse...assign and test due in the same day!
Our sem break is cuming soon, should i excited about it or worry about it?
wan go to philip island tim>.<>.<

Recall back when we were young, no need to worry so much,
when we are getting older, have to think of a lots thing, worry about this and that!
sigh...
Is time for us to be independent and responsible for our actions. Don't you guys think so?
we are nt 18 years old d..20 plus d..LOL! we slowly stepped into another stage d..


It seems like i have nth to write here d...but i still dun feel like want to stop here..
Hmm... Let's talk about my characteristic..
I know that i have a lots weaknesses and sumtimes people dislike my characteristic. Hehe..
Come on, dun be shy, my friends! Just tell me=) Anyway, i also know when u guys dun like my characteristic..haha..I m good in observing people's emtions XD

Since i was young, i m trying to be the best! especially on my studies since i dun like sports..haha..I alwys aim to get the highest marks and want people proud of me, especially my parents.I knew that they never gv any pressure to me and keep asking me not to stress so much! But i can't do it, is my characteristic! cnt be changed d.. lol...I wish i cn be more cheerful person one day =p Sometimes, people wonder why i keep stressing myself. They thought i m ' kia su' people, maybe i m,but it is not the main reason. If i cnt achieve my target, i will feel that i m an useless person, and will start to asking myself why dont i try my best to do it better? maybe too stubborn d,what to do?

Aussie

I m back. So long didnt update my blog d, sorry guys!
I guess i m too busy. hehe..
Well, nw i have changed my destination==>aussie

What should i talk about aussie?
erm, peaceful! yup, tis is the word that i would like use to describe it!
At here, u cn see trees, rivers, cows , kangaroos and wat else? erm, friendly people i guess..

Honestly, i prefer aussie to malysia.hehe..
i like weather here!
Anyway, if left me alone here, i rather bck to malaysia. haha..

At here, i start to miss everyone in malysia...especially my family!
I learnt hw to cook, hw to live independently..
It's a good chance for me to experience here, thx my parents for willing to send me here=)

However, i realised that i have changed.
I dun noe hw to describe it, i tink i have become hot-tempered and emotional person. Last time, I nt even dare to say out my opinion, nw totally different! At least i will show my face once i dislike something, i dun noe is better or worse for me. Maybe others will think i m small gas or angry without reasons. But i have to admit it! yes, I m.
Previous me nt dare to say anything and alwys cried alone at night. now i recall back, wat i cried for? Why others people cn show their faces easily to me, but i cnt? Why don't others try to read my mind? or maybe i know hw to observe others' emotions 'too much' d?

Hmm..or maybe i should change bck previous me? boring with this kind of life..It is full of conflict when people come in! without people, it wont's be any conflict.
Human easily stressed-up. Nobody cn save u unless u save ur ownself =.=

Sometimes, i didnt want to argue with u. It just i cnt control my emotions. Why don't u understnd me better? haiz.. When i tolerate u, at the same time, u should learn hw to tolerate me. I also cannot understand why i will become impatient person. Maybe i need time to think about it and try to calm down myself. Through blogging, i also cnt express my feelings well, i tink write diaries is more suitable for me. As nobody gonna to read my diaries except myself!

wat about my future? have i ever think of my future?
i start to worry about my future d.. wat m i gonna to do in my future?
after degree, which road should i choose?
haiz...
m i worry too much?
I dun think so, it's time for me plan about my future.
Since young, v just followed the road that parents chose for us. It's time for us to make decision nw. lol..

(p/s: Reader please don't think too much! nobdy i m referring to)

tiRED...Tired.. and tiRed

hmmm....
such a tiring day...
i feel so hopeless and helpless..................
i hate this kind of life>.<
others can start to do their revision d, how about me?
stil rushing asisgn man...
wth....so unfair....
stupid monash....cause all students stressful man!!
i wanna cry T.T

how m i gonna to do pretty well in final?
4 subjects man...
all so tough...
help me!

I really sleepy d..
hmmm...sigh la...
nt only towrds assign, final, people as well...
just realise in this world, there are a lot of selfish people..
do not expect anything from people even u treat people kindly...
so, dun be so stupid anymore...
wake up, xw!
must be independent, don't alwys depends on others...
as saying goes, zai jia kao fu mu, at wai kao peng you...
is it true?
well, may be it is true...i meant in sum aspects...but nt all aspects...
really cnt understnd why sometimes i dun like the way of people treat me...
even the way they talk or act...
i hate it...
maybe i m a small gas girl or wat..
anyway, i noe i hv my own weaknesses as well.
but i m willing to accept it and try to improve myself. so just tell me honestly...
anyway, i alwys try my best to not to make people bu suang or angry at me..
is my weakness oso...tat's y i feel hurt sumtimes...
i noe sumtimes i failed to do so, sorry if i hv hurt anyone>.<
i do not meant want to hurt anyone, tat's y i expect wont hurt by anyone oso...

p/s: swt la me...i dun noe wat m i talking about...anyway, dun misunderstnd ya.. cz i oso dun noe who is the person i m talking about..too moody d...>.<

moody day~

around 8, i was alone in room...
suddenly i have no mood...
dun ask me the reason...
i oso dun noe why...
then i keep crying...
lol!
without any reason again..
i guess i m sick...( or nt yet achieve personal growth)
haha...xD
or maybe too fan or even too stress....
hmmm...
i cnt unsterstnd why i cn fail to control my own emotions..
i just feel like crying.....

wat i cn do is forcing myself to sleep...
sleeping is the only way for me........
anyway, i m fine nw..
my dear, thx 4 accompanying me just nw...
i didnt meant want to fierce towrds u......
i just..just.....need express out my feelings..>.<
i m sorry, my dear...
dun worry about me, k?
i m fine d^^

DEAR, honestly this is nt the first time for me to cry like tis way d..
i used to it d...
i alwys cried at the night...
since i was young, i m like tat d...
as i m hard to tell others about my feelings....
hmm...sumtimes i m willing to share my things wif u, but i dun noe hw to share wif uT.T
i alwys keep eveything in my heart til i sick...
even sumtimes i dun like my friends' characteristic, i oso will cry this way...
i noe i m useless.....if i dare to show out my real characteristic in front of them, i will never suffer like tis way...
btw, tonight i really cried without any reason.....
nt becz of anyone or wat...
hehe...i just need to cry out to feel more comfortable...

even sumtimes u make me angry or sad, i oso wil cry like tis way..
hehe...so u better dun make me cry d,,,if nt i will cry til non stop d..
scared ?
later i get astma, then u will noe!
hahaXD
but if u insist wan to make me angry oso nvm, cz once i get angry, u noe wat will i do, right?
when i really get angry, there is no more joking...i m serious...cz i m hot tempered grl too!
haha..

'enjoyable' uni life.....

well, why i will say so?
before i hv entered uni, i heard seniors said they hd enjoy their uni life,
how interesting is uni life?
4 me, it is nt interesting at all...
such a stressful life...
everyday rushing assign..
how could u guys imagine one week gt 2 assigns and one presentation?
the following week one more assign to go..2000 wrds man..30% summore..
sigh...
i cnt even sleep well at night...
my mind keep thinking of assign...keep thinking tat tomorw wat time should i wake up to do my assign, wat points should i add for the assign in order to make it more complete ...
i will say tis kind of life sounds ok if i m a genius...However, i M NT!!!

today i just summit my com bnk assign, i tot cn relax a while...
even let me breathe a while,,,,,
wth man, two more tests are cuming...
i nt even start to read chpter 1....
who cn help me?
arghh.....

the most important thing is final exam is cuming soonnn T.T
i m nt yet ready!!!

sigh..sigh...
i fall sick d..how m i gonna to study 4 tests?
hmmm....
anyway, i m nt satisfied with my uni life right nw!
blogging is an effective way for me to express my feelings...
haiz...wat should i do right nw?
hw cn i expect to do pretty well for the tests?

btw, i hv rec the offer letter today...
i tot i will surprise when i rec it...
nevertheless, i feel nth!
lol.....

10th month anniversary...

yesterday was our 10th month anniversary...
hehe...

At 12am, he gv me such a nice present...
i love it!!!
at first, he asked me to close up my eyes, he said gt sumthing for me...
i said dun wan, then he said if u dun wan close up ur eyes, no present le ya...
haha...wat to do, i wan to get the present!!
so, i just closed up my eyes...hehe...

before i opened my eyes, i try to guess wat the present is,,....
after i touched the present without open eyes, i know that are two bears with flowers as well...
once i opened my eyes, i feel so surprised...
the present so cute...two bears sit on a box...inside the box there is cookies..wakaka...
the brown bear is him and the white 1 is me...XD


wHAT I HV DONE is i asked him to keep the white bear and i will keep the brown bear...
hehe...
it sounds cute, right? (p/s: beh pai sei..hahaXD)

aFTER that, v ate cookies together...hehe...dam delicious..








The next day, v went to pyramid for dinner...
when v reached tere, v were in dilemma whether want to go which restaurant to eat...
At last, v went to vietnamese restaurant to eat...
haha...
i ate chicken chop and he ate grilled fish with banana leaf..
loll...anyway, quite nice to eat...

after that, v went to shopping...
around 9.30 pm, v went to Circle tere...
it is a romantic place...


i try to order porridge tere as it is my favourite food...
unfortunately, out of stock..loll...then , i just ordered black tea...
And he just ordered french toast ...

there are two singers tere...one girl and one guy...
btw, the guy sounded better than the girl..
haha...
bth of us enjoyed in that kind of situation...

around 11pm, v decided to go bck hostel...
cz it's quite late d...i scared to take lift alone especially at night..wakaka..

after reached hostel, i went to take bathe and started to do my presentation question and assignment...
sigh...
i hate to do assign...this cuming week, i hv 1 presentation and 2 assignments...
next week one more assign..2000 wrds man...30% somemore...damn!!!!
such a busy life...T.T

anyway, around 11.45pm, i called him and wished him happy 10th mth anniversary again...
after 12am, it is 19th of april d...
it is a new day again...




i really appreciate that can be wif him till 10 mths...
be wif him, i cn feel the warmth and happiness....
even sumtimes v will quarrel, but i know v still love each other...
however, i nt really like to argue wif him, is hurting him and myself..
anyway, i m nt the one who alwys start to argue...HAHA..
but i m the one who alwys caused him to angry...hehe...(swt''') =p

Happiness begin from....

On 18th of June, he brought me to KLCC....
I oso dun noe why i will promised him to go out wif him..XD
tHEN, v went to watch a movie...shopping, walking around, eat, etc...

Around evening time, v went to a park, sumwhere near tere...
Needless to say, v keep taking pic tere...haha...
well, then he asked me to sit on a bench tere...
V started to chat over tere...
sudeenly, he confessed to me...the last sentence was,''cn u gv me a chance to take k of u and love u 4ever?

wat i have replied ??
haha..
i replied, oh, if i said yes, then wat will happen, and hw about if i rejected..
he replied wif a sad face, he said if yes, then i will feel very happy, but if u rejected, nvm lor..hehe...

haha...Then, i replied, en...
he said en means???
haha...
i said en means ok lo..lolll...

Then he gv me a necklace...
is angel...i love the necklace..
tHE angel like telling me that he will alwys take k of me, protect me, and love me alwys...

at that moment, he happy until keep hoping...
lolll...
he said cn i annaunced to the world that u r my gf now..
i said cnt!! of course,...=p

then he asked me a question, cn i hold ur hand?
hahaha...
i said dun noe...
lolll..such a lame question and answer...

tis is where v start our story....
I love you, my dear!

College life-MUFY...

I oso dun noe why i will create a blog..
lol...i guess is influenced by yf...
haha..anyway, before i create this blog, i thought write blog or read blog just waste my time..
but, I realised i was wrong.. it is quite interesting, especially when u read others blog, u cn understnd his or her feelings deeply..

I still remembered that when i came to sunway to study, i feel so scared. I have to face wif this new environemnt alone. Btw, i feel so grateful when ching yi decided to come over here to study...at least gt someone cn acc me..



On the first day i moved in hostel, i cried...
The reason i cried was i was in dilemma whether wan to choose business course or sc course but nt miss home...swt'''

At last, I hv chosen business.
The first month in Sunway, cy acc me alwys! Thus, I wont feel so lonely...
Thx, CHING YI!

However, she leaved me alone here after acc me for one month..She had chosen Matrix...
The moment she bcked to hometwn, i didnt send her as i feel so sad or even almost cry..

As time passed by, i hv met all of my friends....At here, our gang is formed...
haha...I really appreciate my friends! Thx you for accompanying me throughout the year^^
love u guys !XD
Every week, v will go redbox to sing k, shopping, eat, etc...
such an enjoyable life!!!
damn miss it >.<

Before final, v hd study group at foyer... that time, everyone dam hardworking.. everyone discusssing homewrk tere, study tere... except me... alwys dreaming tere... hmmm... i cnt even concentrate tere, but i like to join them... at least i wont alone at hostel... so, i just will study maths , acct tere... as i cn concentrate in calculation...haha...








This is how my college life looked like... even it is just 8 months, but i really feel grateful to meet them tere... without them, i m alone... i really cnt imagine i alone throughout the year T.T

THX!!!!, MY FRIENDS~~